Post Con-blues

So it's nearly Christmas! That's mega insane. This time last week I was having the best time. When to a Doctor Who convention where both David Tennant and Billie Piper were attending. I don't think I can even explain how nervous and excited I was to see Billie. She's always been my favourite. She was just wonderful. It was all a little bit of a blur. But I remember her being so lovely and polite, happy to meet you, and lots of smiling. Sigh. It was perfect. Seeing David again was just the same, just didn't know what to say to him...just he's too perfect right? So much I would love to say, but didn't. Eve Myles was also at the con. I had a lovely really long chat with her about the play she did with Zach Braff. I told her how much l loved the play, and wished I could of spoken to her after the show. I also said she did his work justice. Which then lead her on to tell me this long story about how Zach didn't realise she was welsh, and he cast her thinking she was British. Lots of Zach impressions later, still talking, and then signing my programme like twice...just because she's that awesome.
Although I now have a con-cold, I am trying to remain happy. This cold is making me feel super pants and rubbish, but thinking about last weekend makes it all worth while. I have met Billie...oh my goodness, I still can't believe it.

Wrap up warm

Today has been a blur. It's gone by really fast, even though I had a longer shift at work. The weather is rather cold at the moment. I am feeling it. I am drinking more tea, more blankets on my bed, wearing socks and leggings with my pjs, and even a giant jumper, and wrapping up with my scarf and gloves.

11 weeks, how crazy?!

Super happy Nicola right now. I lost 2lbs this week at slimming world, which means I have now lost 2st over 11 weeks. Kinda can't believe it. I don't feel that different, but 28lbs is a lot!! People keep saying they can see I have lost weight in my face...but at the moment I can't see it.
Came home to a real christmas tree in the living room. I have always wanted a real tree, ever since I was a kid. So happy to finally have one! Hopefully will be decorating tomorrow evening after work. Still have quite a bit of Christmas shopping to do, thank goodness for getting paid today!
My emotions are still playing up, but trying to keep happy and carry on.

What just happened?

Today I sent off all my christmas cards and gifts for my far away friends. Giant queue at the post office today. More rude people. What's up with people at the moment?! Seriously! Although the guy who served me was very nice and happy, which cheered me up.
My emotions are really annoying me at the moment. Just burst into tears earlier today and couldn't stop crying...and I really don't know why. I don't know what my body is doing right now. It's insane. Strange crazy lady Nicola right now.

Please don't fall asleep on me

I am so sleepy right now, but I must carry on and type this. Currently in bed and nearly falling asleep. It's really cold outside. I have so many layers on right now it's kinda insane.
It was the work Christmas party this evening. I know, partying on a Sunday night. Too cool for school. It was a fun evening. Lots of laughs, quite a few actually. I wasn't really up for tonight, all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball, listen to music and sleep. But I am glad I went. I work with strange people, but I love them all the same. Drank quite a bit and was very merry. It was a strange and interesting night.

Well, we will have to do it again then

So work was rather crazy today. First off, I didn't sleep well last night. This has had a giant effect on my day. I really don't know what it was, I just couldn't sleep. I kept tossing and turning, and couldn't shut off. I can't really remember what my mind was thinking about...it just wouldn't let me sleep. Anyway, so super sleepy and an early morning at work do not go well.
It's crazy. Everyone is going Christmas shopping right now. But why do people have to be rude? Everyone is trying to get in and out quickly, but still manners please.
Having a nice evening filled with food, telling stories, catching up, writing lists, and watching the Breakfast Club.

Dreaming of a white Christmas indeed

So went Christmas shopping with Mumma today. We listened to She and Him's Christmas album in the car, watching the rain. It was lovely to just spend some time with just my mum. We never really have any time just the two of us. Lots of shopping was done. Many Christmas presents were brought...gifts for blogger friends, work secret Santa, close friends, far away friends, and maybe even myself. Oops. Oh well! Two awesome jumpers and an avengers t-shirt I just had to buy.
Talking to far away friends today has made me miss them so much. It's annoying having friends living so far away...but then, that the joys of the Internet I guess.
I have so much wrapping up to do, finish writing Christmas cards, and my room looks like Christmas has exploded everywhere. Such a perfect time of year.

If your lips touched mine

Dressing up at work last night was interesting. Giving out mince pies, doing lots of talking, and smiling. Super tired by the end of my shift.
Enjoying seeing frost on the leaves in the morning. I don't like the cold, but it's all so pretty. Feeling better about life. Need to keep strong and carry on. I still believe that everything happens for a reason. Good and bad. So, just need to keep smiling and being me...and not forgetting who I am.

Recently in Nicola's life

So things change. Thats just the way life is. You think something is so perfect and awesome, and then out of nowhere it changes. No reason why. Nothing is explained. And that's what hurts the most.
And you wish it didn't, and things could be fine. Like they were. But that's not meant to happen.
I am feeling better now, I have my voice back. Which is always a good thing. I have been listening to lots of music, going to friend's boyfriend's gigs, buying Christmas presents, taking photos, painting, nights with best friends, planning secret Santa at work, missing America and my family, buying smaller dresses, writing letters, and just trying to carry on.

All I can do is whisper...

I am feeling worried and sick. I don't want to feel like this. I just want things to just be normal again. Sigh. How annoying.
I really need ice cream. Like lots. And not because I feel like this, it's because I am losing my voice. Trying to talk to customers at work today was an experience.
I have this feeling this post may never actually be posted..or I will just delete it. It's just helping me to type all this out.
*update* currently listening to Two Door Cinema Club, and they are making me smile. What will be, will be.

Argh

Currently feeling pants.
Stupid sore throat and rather annoyed.
I hate feeling like this.

*sigh*

I am a crappy blogger.
Lots have been happening, I don't really know where to start.
Feeling very happy at the moment, and that's always a good thing.

Nice to meet you after all this time!

So I just had the greatest weekend. I went to London on the Saturday for EMS, where Matt Smith was there signing for the day. He was so lovey. He greeted everyone with the same giant 'hello' and smile. When queuing up for my photo shoot with him, when the queue got into the room, a kinda squealed out loud. He is so cute/hot in real life. Plus, he kept playing with his hair. He is lovely. I love him lots.

It was fun to hang out with my friends too. Lots of laughs, seeing people, catching up was had. Plus meeting new friends...which was very good indeed. More on this sometime soon.

Then yesterday the tickets for Glastonbury went on sale. I got a ticket! They sold out in a record 1hr 40mins this year! It was crazy. Last year the website was much better, it felt like it couldn't handle the demand this year. So I have that to look forward to next year. I missed not going this year. Super happy right now.

Yeah.

So ever since I developed my disposable camera, so many memories have been floating around in my head. Shelby asking me to say certain words, Maggie repeating words I had said in a British accent, Mayte making me laugh all the time---like all the time, loving and really listening to Amy and Natalie's voices---because they are just so perfect, Dillion singing while driving his car, and the cute way Lina says my name.

I miss everyone too much. I know we are all so far away from each other...but I hate how far away I am. I can't just get on a short plane ride, or drive to see any of them. I live in another bloody county. It hurts to be away from your family, when all you wanna do it sit together and talk.

RCF London

So I went to London to the Renegade Craft Fair the other week with my wonderful friend Charlotte. It was just what we both needed. A little trip to London, to bring out our creative sides again. It was all so pretty.

I wanted so many bits and pieces. The one thing I loved was that everyone was in a wonderful mood, and really wanted to chat with you. Ended up talking with 2 lovely ladies about Harry Potter for a while, and the giant surprise at the end of the tour. Brilliant stuff.

It was just nice being in London. I miss it alot. I love my little home town, but a city is where I belong. I can feel it. I think I am just missing Uni life, and the freedom that comes with living in a big city, where there is so much to do. My town is far too small. Blah. Adventure is what I need.

Yup, start singing

Last weekend I went to my aunties house for my cousin's birthday. It was lovely to see everyone, and catch up. Lots of cute little cakes, glasses of pimms, old school sweets, and sunshine was had. Hearing stories about my uncle, looking at photos when I was a kid and a bridesmaid, and other stories were shared.

Plus, trying to watch Doctor Who. That didn't really go very well, as there were so many children...and they wouldn't be quiet. So gave up in the end. Ended up watching it later in the evening with my cousins when everyone had gone home. Perfect end to a lovely afternoon/evening.