Post Con-blues

So it's nearly Christmas! That's mega insane. This time last week I was having the best time. When to a Doctor Who convention where both David Tennant and Billie Piper were attending. I don't think I can even explain how nervous and excited I was to see Billie. She's always been my favourite. She was just wonderful. It was all a little bit of a blur. But I remember her being so lovely and polite, happy to meet you, and lots of smiling. Sigh. It was perfect. Seeing David again was just the same, just didn't know what to say to him...just he's too perfect right? So much I would love to say, but didn't. Eve Myles was also at the con. I had a lovely really long chat with her about the play she did with Zach Braff. I told her how much l loved the play, and wished I could of spoken to her after the show. I also said she did his work justice. Which then lead her on to tell me this long story about how Zach didn't realise she was welsh, and he cast her thinking she was British. Lots of Zach impressions later, still talking, and then signing my programme like twice...just because she's that awesome.
Although I now have a con-cold, I am trying to remain happy. This cold is making me feel super pants and rubbish, but thinking about last weekend makes it all worth while. I have met Billie...oh my goodness, I still can't believe it.

Wrap up warm

Today has been a blur. It's gone by really fast, even though I had a longer shift at work. The weather is rather cold at the moment. I am feeling it. I am drinking more tea, more blankets on my bed, wearing socks and leggings with my pjs, and even a giant jumper, and wrapping up with my scarf and gloves.

11 weeks, how crazy?!

Super happy Nicola right now. I lost 2lbs this week at slimming world, which means I have now lost 2st over 11 weeks. Kinda can't believe it. I don't feel that different, but 28lbs is a lot!! People keep saying they can see I have lost weight in my face...but at the moment I can't see it.
Came home to a real christmas tree in the living room. I have always wanted a real tree, ever since I was a kid. So happy to finally have one! Hopefully will be decorating tomorrow evening after work. Still have quite a bit of Christmas shopping to do, thank goodness for getting paid today!
My emotions are still playing up, but trying to keep happy and carry on.

What just happened?

Today I sent off all my christmas cards and gifts for my far away friends. Giant queue at the post office today. More rude people. What's up with people at the moment?! Seriously! Although the guy who served me was very nice and happy, which cheered me up.
My emotions are really annoying me at the moment. Just burst into tears earlier today and couldn't stop crying...and I really don't know why. I don't know what my body is doing right now. It's insane. Strange crazy lady Nicola right now.

Please don't fall asleep on me

I am so sleepy right now, but I must carry on and type this. Currently in bed and nearly falling asleep. It's really cold outside. I have so many layers on right now it's kinda insane.
It was the work Christmas party this evening. I know, partying on a Sunday night. Too cool for school. It was a fun evening. Lots of laughs, quite a few actually. I wasn't really up for tonight, all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball, listen to music and sleep. But I am glad I went. I work with strange people, but I love them all the same. Drank quite a bit and was very merry. It was a strange and interesting night.

Well, we will have to do it again then

So work was rather crazy today. First off, I didn't sleep well last night. This has had a giant effect on my day. I really don't know what it was, I just couldn't sleep. I kept tossing and turning, and couldn't shut off. I can't really remember what my mind was thinking about...it just wouldn't let me sleep. Anyway, so super sleepy and an early morning at work do not go well.
It's crazy. Everyone is going Christmas shopping right now. But why do people have to be rude? Everyone is trying to get in and out quickly, but still manners please.
Having a nice evening filled with food, telling stories, catching up, writing lists, and watching the Breakfast Club.

Dreaming of a white Christmas indeed

So went Christmas shopping with Mumma today. We listened to She and Him's Christmas album in the car, watching the rain. It was lovely to just spend some time with just my mum. We never really have any time just the two of us. Lots of shopping was done. Many Christmas presents were brought...gifts for blogger friends, work secret Santa, close friends, far away friends, and maybe even myself. Oops. Oh well! Two awesome jumpers and an avengers t-shirt I just had to buy.
Talking to far away friends today has made me miss them so much. It's annoying having friends living so far away...but then, that the joys of the Internet I guess.
I have so much wrapping up to do, finish writing Christmas cards, and my room looks like Christmas has exploded everywhere. Such a perfect time of year.

If your lips touched mine

Dressing up at work last night was interesting. Giving out mince pies, doing lots of talking, and smiling. Super tired by the end of my shift.
Enjoying seeing frost on the leaves in the morning. I don't like the cold, but it's all so pretty. Feeling better about life. Need to keep strong and carry on. I still believe that everything happens for a reason. Good and bad. So, just need to keep smiling and being me...and not forgetting who I am.

Recently in Nicola's life

So things change. Thats just the way life is. You think something is so perfect and awesome, and then out of nowhere it changes. No reason why. Nothing is explained. And that's what hurts the most.
And you wish it didn't, and things could be fine. Like they were. But that's not meant to happen.
I am feeling better now, I have my voice back. Which is always a good thing. I have been listening to lots of music, going to friend's boyfriend's gigs, buying Christmas presents, taking photos, painting, nights with best friends, planning secret Santa at work, missing America and my family, buying smaller dresses, writing letters, and just trying to carry on.