Desk life

My desk is currently in a complete mess. I am trying to make sense of all this craziness. My desk feels like Mary Poppins' bag, because you never know what you are gonna find. So many mini treasures I have forgotten about. Mini gems. All these little things have wonderful stories and some are just very normal. Treasure hunting and displaying is one of my favorite activities.

Feeling alive

So it's autumn. You can feel it in the air now. Wore my new duffle coat yesterday, for the first time. It's colder, and I am drinking more tea. And wanting to drink hot chocolate all the time. I nearly spent £6 on a carton of Eggnog yesterday...I stopped myself. Plus I think David stopped me too...even though he went on to say we would split it. I still don't know why I stopped myself. I want it. So bad. Stupid non-English tradition. America is the best. I stood looking at wonderful pop-tarts and Oreo flavours...why don't we have this stuff in the UK, and when we do, why is it so expensive?! Damn eggnog.

The rain makes me happy and sad. I like to be inside looking outside at the rain. Perfect place would be in a warm coffee shop. Just looking out the window at people rushing by, and watching the rain trickle down the glass of the window. I don't get getting caught in the rain, when I have somewhere to be. However, if I have time on my side, I like being in the rain. The rain falling on my face, making me feel alive, knowing I am awake, that this is all real.

Drinking tea and listening to Lana Del Rey this afternoon. It's so cold I am now in bed, as it's the warmest place. It's autumn. 

Always on my mind

There are so many creative people around me. I know I am a creative person, I just need to keep telling myself that. After I finished university I had to get a job. It always reminds me of Dawn in the office. It wasn't what I wanted, so I would tell myself I was an artist who worked in a shop. But not, I am a person who works in a shop that likes art. 

I just need to make more time for these things. Going on so many trips to art galleries and creative places is making me so hungry for art. I miss it. I miss living and breathing it all day long. I miss sitting in a studio and having time to create art. It's all about balance. I have to give time back to that side of me.