Please don't fall asleep on me

I am so sleepy right now, but I must carry on and type this. Currently in bed and nearly falling asleep. It's really cold outside. I have so many layers on right now it's kinda insane.
It was the work Christmas party this evening. I know, partying on a Sunday night. Too cool for school. It was a fun evening. Lots of laughs, quite a few actually. I wasn't really up for tonight, all I wanted to do was curl up in a ball, listen to music and sleep. But I am glad I went. I work with strange people, but I love them all the same. Drank quite a bit and was very merry. It was a strange and interesting night.

Well, we will have to do it again then

So work was rather crazy today. First off, I didn't sleep well last night. This has had a giant effect on my day. I really don't know what it was, I just couldn't sleep. I kept tossing and turning, and couldn't shut off. I can't really remember what my mind was thinking about...it just wouldn't let me sleep. Anyway, so super sleepy and an early morning at work do not go well.
It's crazy. Everyone is going Christmas shopping right now. But why do people have to be rude? Everyone is trying to get in and out quickly, but still manners please.
Having a nice evening filled with food, telling stories, catching up, writing lists, and watching the Breakfast Club.

Dreaming of a white Christmas indeed

So went Christmas shopping with Mumma today. We listened to She and Him's Christmas album in the car, watching the rain. It was lovely to just spend some time with just my mum. We never really have any time just the two of us. Lots of shopping was done. Many Christmas presents were brought...gifts for blogger friends, work secret Santa, close friends, far away friends, and maybe even myself. Oops. Oh well! Two awesome jumpers and an avengers t-shirt I just had to buy.
Talking to far away friends today has made me miss them so much. It's annoying having friends living so far away...but then, that the joys of the Internet I guess.
I have so much wrapping up to do, finish writing Christmas cards, and my room looks like Christmas has exploded everywhere. Such a perfect time of year.

If your lips touched mine

Dressing up at work last night was interesting. Giving out mince pies, doing lots of talking, and smiling. Super tired by the end of my shift.
Enjoying seeing frost on the leaves in the morning. I don't like the cold, but it's all so pretty. Feeling better about life. Need to keep strong and carry on. I still believe that everything happens for a reason. Good and bad. So, just need to keep smiling and being me...and not forgetting who I am.

Recently in Nicola's life

So things change. Thats just the way life is. You think something is so perfect and awesome, and then out of nowhere it changes. No reason why. Nothing is explained. And that's what hurts the most.
And you wish it didn't, and things could be fine. Like they were. But that's not meant to happen.
I am feeling better now, I have my voice back. Which is always a good thing. I have been listening to lots of music, going to friend's boyfriend's gigs, buying Christmas presents, taking photos, painting, nights with best friends, planning secret Santa at work, missing America and my family, buying smaller dresses, writing letters, and just trying to carry on.