Thursday, 17 September 2009

where do we go?

aaaaaaah...sorry...just need to scream for a little bit. ah my head seems to be all over the place at the moment..and i don't know what to say or do. i feel completely empty..with no way out. maybe i miss my old life, maybe i miss my really close friends...or maybe its the fact i am trying so hard to make my life move..but its not working. everyones lives seem to be moving on..and i feel stuck. i am trying my hardest to do something and get on with my life....but its not going anywhere...i still feel like a little kid. sorry for the stupid ramble...i just needed to get it out. i do feel a bit better now. :) after a very very very long wait, i finally got to see adventureland, tonight at the cinema. ah it was amazing. i was a little worried that i had built it up in my head, and it wasn't gonna be as good as i had hoped, but it was better. i really liked the characters, and the tone of the movie. Martin Starr, really stood out for me. i have loved him in so many movies before, but he love mega cute, and rather funny...and his glasses were to die for. Kristen Stewart, of course was amazing, and always brilliant. she oozes coolness...fab!my sister brought me a kinder egg, which was very very lovely of weakness is Kinder eggs!!! hahaha.
as i finish typing this, i have been joined by a spider who keeps walking up and down the wall, so he can say hello to me..ah you random little fella you!


Kayleigh. said...

Mate don't worry! I'm exactly the same..I work at Gap ffs..and I'm probably getting dropped for a better intern who knows how to do photography and use design software.

no joke.

I'm very sad right now, it hasn't happened yet..but I have a bad feeling.

Don't worry :( we'll be well off one day!! promise! love you!!xxxx
(p.s Don't mention intern thing on fb until I know for sure yeah?)

Ruta said...

oh wow, love these pics. especially the one with the kinder surprise

Sarah~Mechelle said...

I know this is probably the last thing you want to hear right now... but the feeling will pass.

I have been there myself for so long, I had thought it would never leave. But life is starting to fill with many beautiful colours again. I hope you find the colours again soon too!

Oh, and I love the photos you take. They are so interesting!

sophinee said...

I feel the same way (it doesn't help having friends with children/who are engaged), it's nice to know I'm not the only one :)

*jemima* said...
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*jemima* said...

Awwww pet,

As someone previously said, it will pass. I've got my degree now, not quite sure what to do with it, I'm not too keen on the idea of teaching or anything, so am doing an Honours degree, to have an extra year being a student. But half of me doesn't want to go back either, I think I've served enough time at uni. Feel slightly caught in the middle. Also a bit lost. I think we're all feeling a bit lost.

I try to focus on the good things. It helps.

Hope everything doesn't feel so swirly :(


Leanne said...

Just keep watching adventureland that will make you feel better :)
It's so good I was suprised but loved it! Michael cera is my favourite actor and to me jesse eisenberg is uncannily like him. Sorry for ramble on, hope something special happens very soon ox

Allison said...

I hope you figure everything out Nicola! I'll be praying for you.

Ahh! Spider! I would be freaking out if I were you. :P

Wonderlander said...

Ohmygod I can't believe you left the spider there!!!

Sometimes things take time to clickitty click into place- it will be all good eventually.


ONiC said...

aww *hugs* i do feel the same way sometimes. i usually cry and then talk to myself that everything would be fine. tho sometimes i feel that way without any obvious reason.

Sara said...

Did you play with him? Mr. Spider?

Ines said...

i feel the same way... i have very little friends at uni, and always miss my old hometown friends... somehow they all managed to get new friends and move on with their lives =/

hope everything gets better!

and i really want to see adventureland, i saw the trailer and it looks quite cool^^

(i had to go out and buy a kinder egg after i saw your post xD)

Sophia said...

I've probably told you this already, but Adventureland was filmed at the amusement park very near to my house! I really want to see it, mostly to see all the rides I've grown up with.

And don't worry too much about the future, all will fall into place eventually. No need to stress yourself out :)

Jane said...

aw poor love :(
but don't forget that everyone feels like that sometimes.
very often i freak out when i see awesome artists exhibit and get jobs and I'm like "D: how will I ever do that!?"
life is pretty scary!people just don't really talk about it *hugs*

LookingGlassGirl said...

Everything will work out for you. Being a graduate is hard, as it seems like everyone is looking for experience and you've just come out of a three year degree, but it will happen for you and then you'll wonder why you worried.